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Last April 4, I decided to break up with my bf. After our 1 year anniversary last March 25 I decided to quit. The love is still their but; the commitment is not in the relationship anymore. I go out with another man<naLd>. I don’t know with my Ex-bf since we are in a long distance relationship. But I have this women instinct that he never go out with other girls ‘coz I know how much he loves me. Hehehe that’s made my ego boast! I go out with naLd, for just a friendly date? Hehehe Okay I admit at first, Of course I like the guy! My ex-bf keeps on courting me, asking me to fix our ended affair. I just set Him aside ‘coz somehow I know he’s still there for me whatever happens. Days, weeks & months passed.Nald and I decided to be friends, since we have different views in life. I can’t breathe whenever nald is around. I always got pressure whenever He asked me, what to eat? Where to go, etc. Every time I’m with Him, I just can’t be me. I don’t know. I can’t express what I wanted to say every time I’m vexed with him. .I always feel discontentment, I’m not happy at all. I tried to be happy whenever nald is around. .Nald don’t know all of this kind a hiding myself. Anyway nald is a good person. It’s just that only KELVIN REY PALMEROLA makes me feel happy! He always makes me as the real GRACE all the time. With my bf I easily express. Whatever in my minds. If I’m angry I can shout @ him. I can say my no’s and Yes! See the difference when I’m in nald and with my bf? So after the realization and all the craziness I had been. I text my bf, ops I forgot my Ex-bf! What a sad love life I had now.hmm I asked his forgiveness and I confessed my sins and lies. I told Him what happened about me and nald. Of course he’s really mad @ me! I remember He cried that time he call me on the phone. Asking why I did that bullshit thing! Yes that bullshit!!! That was my entire fault. I’m so stupid to let the man who I know, from the very start is the one who makes me HAPPY! And did the most stupid things to other guy. I courted Him; yes I’m the one who courted Him this time. Anyway courting a guy, whom you know deserve to be courted, is not a big deal. I just did what I think was right. I gave Him time to think. But He chooses to leave me now. I respect his decision even though my happiness relies on that. I cry, cry and cry that night. Setting him free means I don’t owe Him. He deserves someone else….. How pathetic my life is!